Saturday, 31 December 2011

Farewell 2011


Looking back on this year, it definitely hasn't been a boring one! Sadly, this wasn't always for the right reasons. I graduated my law degree after months of arguing with the head of UCL that I was well enough to sit my exams, even though I couldn't actually attend classes without going straight to A and E afterwards. I'm so grateful to my lovely friend Jasmine for helping me get through it all - without her help I don't think I would have ever graduated. However, it did teach me that stress sets off my illness worse than anything else, so at least now I know to try and keep myself calm even when it might be very difficult to do so - especially considering I've always been a big stresshead anyway!

At the time I was living with the boy I thought I was going to spend my life with, but unfortunately we broke up around the same time as my exams. I knew it was the right thing to do but he didn't agree, so we didn't leave things on good terms which was hard considering how long we had been friends, but I've finally learnt to be strong for myself, not other people. I've finally learnt to let go.


I moved back to Newcastle in July as I was sick of going to hospital alone, so figured I'd come home for a few months, let my specialist figure out what was wrong with my kidneys then I could go back to London again. Unfortunately in my first appointment with him this summer, he told me that I have a chronic illness with no cure, and there isn't really anything they can do for me. It's taken me a long time to process this, but I'm finally learning to accept it now. I still miss London a lot sometimes, but for now I'm very happy living in Newcastle. Plus, I think I'd miss savaloy dips and geordie accents too much if I moved back to London just yet.


While still in London, I finally started overcoming my shyness and anxiety issues, and made some absolutely amazing friends and had times I will never forget. However, moving back to Newcastle I realised I don't really know anybody here any more, so I've spent a lot of the past few months feeling very lonely. I got sad over this a lot to start with, but I've come to realise you only live once, so it's not worth spending all your time sad when you could be making it right. So I've now set up a networking group for businesses in Newcastle, and we had a fab first meeting, with a second one coming soon. I've also decided to actively fix my shyness again by learning not to say no when opportunities arise (although not to the extent of Jim Carrey in Yes Man - as much as I would love to befriend Zooey Deschanel!).

I've also realised a lot of the people I've been close to the past year have been very negative, and it's time to stop associating with that. I think everyone deserves someone around them that would be more likely to compliment them than insult them, and it's time I start realising that's true for myself too.


Business wise, this has been an absolutely amazing year. I'm so grateful for all your support when I made the switch to running Little Miss Delicious full time, and I haven't regretted a single moment of it! I'm very lucky to have supportive parents that have provided me with ample studio space, and it's so nice to know I have the most amazing customers that appreciate all the hard work and love that goes into creating every piece. I am so incredibly grateful to everyone that has purchased Little Miss Delicious pieces from the website and all the fans on Facebook and Twitter. I couldn't do any of this without you!

It's been a rocky road this year, but from all the bad came something good because I've learnt from everything that's happened. I feel like I'm starting 2012 stronger than ever, and with a mammoth trip to America planned and lots of other exciting opportunities in the works, hopefully it will be the best year yet!



4 comments:

  1. Well done for everything you have achieved and for overcoming so much. I am not yet ready to take that step, but I can't wait for the day we meet, and the day I come to one of the networking events. It will mean that my social anxiety has eased up. I think you're so brave to have done the things you've done, like move to london (i would love to do this!) and set up stall at Clothes Show (I cant imagine doing this for the fear of being around so many people at one time). Keep doing what you're doing. Hope you've enjoyed your well deserved time off x

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  2. Happy new year gorgeous, this is a lovely end of year post! Hope 2012 is even more successful for you!

    http://www.rafflesbizarre.blogspot.com

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  3. T:S - thank you so much. It would be lovely to meet you when you are ready! Anxiety is a horrible thing, but sometimes it helps to know we aren't the only ones dealing with issues like that.

    RB: You too! :) xo

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  4. I know this post was a long time ago now, but do you still run the networking events?

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